Friday, September 11, 2009

FIGHTING DARKNESS written by Denise Vasquez on 9/11



This is the first time I am writing about where I was on 9/11, how I was feeling, what inspired me to write my song "FIGHTING DARKNESS"...Like many others, 9/11 is a hard topic for me to discuss, but I feel the need to write about it today...

Rebuild and Remember! Never Forget 9/11

Like many artists, I wrote a song & created art on 9/11

The song I wrote and the piece I painted on my acoustic guitar are both intense...both are reflections of life as it occurred for me on that day...


FIGHTING DARKNESS
Written on 9/11/2001 by Denise Vasquez

I woke up this morning
It was just another day
My sister called to reach me
Yeah the sky was looking grey
I thought that she had missed me
She called to say hello
The tremble in her breath
Told me there was more to know

Her heart was FIGHTING DARKNESS
When the sky began to fall
The Twins they fell down crumbling
Now there's nothing there at all
FIGHTING DARKNESS
FIGHTING DARKNESS
FIGHTING DARKNESS

I sit here in my sadness
Destructions in our home
I listen to the madness
I am chilled to the bone
I look to your OUR FATHER
What are we to do
Will we stand up and fight
It's the only thing to do

Her heart was FIGHTING DARKNESS
When the sky began to fall
The Twins they fell down crumbling
Now there's nothing there at all
FIGHTING DARKNESS
FIGHTING DARKNESS
FIGHTING DARKNESS

I woke up this morning
Looking for a better day
Strangers try to reach me
Looking for a better way
We will find the answers
Things will never be the same
We have to take on life
And learn to win this game

Her heart was FIGHTING DARKNESS
When the sky began to fall
The Twins they fell down crumbling
Now there's nothing there at all
FIGHTING DARKNESS
FIGHTING DARKNESS
FIGHTING DARKNESS


A friend of mine was visiting me from the Virgin Islands. She arrived on 9/10/01
It was her first trip to California. Her birthday was the following day 9/11

I purchased us concert tickets to see "The Black Crowes" as a birthday gift. We were so excited about her visit and couldn't wait to go see "The Black Crowes" in concert. We made an effort to go to sleep early as we had a long fun day planned for ourselves on 9/11

6:30AM the following morning I could hear my sister leaving messages on my answering machine...she was distraught...her voice was trembling...she was panicking...

Then my mother was calling leaving me messages on my answering machine..."We are under attack"..."Turn on a TV"...no one is coming...no one is coming...

Was I having a nightmare?!?

It seemed so real...

That's because it was...

I returned my mother's call (she lives & works in New York City) & she told me that an airplane had hit one of the "Twins" as us New Yorkers would refer to them.

I couldn't believe it...my heart started pounding...I couldn't breathe...

I didn't have a TV at the time, so I went to my neighbors & woke her up...

She turned on the TV & we watched in disbelief as the news showed the airplane hitting the tower...

It didn't seem real...That was until we watched in horror as the second plane hit...

OMG, we totally freaked out...

Watching it was really traumatic for us, I couldn't even imagine what my family, friends, associates, people in New York City were feeling, thinking, going through!

I started thinking about who I knew that could be in that area or in the buildings...

My Mom was working at a hospital nearby at the time...My sister was taking courses at the college near there at the time...I had many friends & business associates that worked in the buildings...

I had to stop watching the news...I couldn't stop crying...I was distraught & filled with angst, anger, sorrow...It was too much for me...I felt soooooo BEYOND helpless...I wanted to jump on a plane & get to my Native New York...I felt the need to be there...but I knew it wasn't going to happen...

So the only thing I could think to do to keep my sanity was to write and paint...

A few days later, I was scheduled to perform in Los Angeles...At first, I didn't want to do the show...I talked to my mom about it & she reminded me that I could DO SOMETHING...Yes, I could do something! I could do the show as a tribute to The Brave Firefighters...

I carefully selected my songs for this live recorded performance in connection to the loss my family & friends in New York City and worldwide had endured.

Word spread quickly & the show was recorded live to a packed house...

The show for me was really intense! I went on this emotional journey...I cried through my music the entire set...The audience hung on every word I sang & every emotion that flowed through me...Everyone came along for the ride...

I wrote My song "FIGHTING DARKNESS" on 9/11 as a tribute to those brave souls that sacrificed their lives and to all of us survivors...

You can download my live performance of 'FIGHTING DARKNESS" for FREE over the next few days from my myspace player


Never Forget! Rebuild & Remember!

PeAce LOvE aRt & sOuL
Denise Vasquez

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